I’ve talked to a few people about my recent #365daysofhappiness posts and thought I would revive my long lost blog (yeah!!!) and take some time to explain it.

How did it come about?

I was feeling pretty down and out about a situation I was having with a friend and it was really taking a toll on me. I’m a pretty empathetic person by nature so I am sensitive to others feelings and am very susceptible to take on their energy as well, especially loved ones. During this period of feeling down I noticed other small, odd, and in my perception BAD things were happening. I remember thinking “Why are these bad things happening to me all at once!? I can’t handle it!? I don’t deserve this!”

I then realized that hard situations and bad things will always happen. That’s part of life. But I did also realize that it’s so easy to get dragged down by one bad situation and have it spiral into a pool of negativity making it harder to get out of. 

Enter #365daysofhappiness

I decided I didn’t want to let these negative situations dictate my life. Although I couldn’t control or fix what was going on with the situation I understood that I could not dwell on it and let it consume me.

So I started small. I decided that I would note one thing everyday that made me happy- whether it be an article I really enjoyed, something that made me laugh, a beautiful moment I experienced in nature, somewhere or something I did that was fun, a quote I really liked…..anything that evoked happiness within me. And I decided I would document that one thing everyday with #365daysofhappiness and share it.

What it has done for me so far

It was hard at first to identify one thing everyday. I started off thinking it should be something life moving or huge. Then I started noticing the small things in everyday life that made me smile. I began to be more present and more grateful for the things I was able to experience. It became easier and after a while I started noticing more than one thing!

My mood has lightened and I have definitely become more aware of living. Yeah I have bad moments, yeah I vent, yeah I still come across challenges…but I have found it is easier for me to bounce back and accept things for what they are and appreciate the good stuff. (Even if it was a silly photo with little insignificance- if I enjoyed it and laughed at it – that’s the good stuff). 

Most importantly it has made me more conscious of who I am as a person.

Why share if it’s for me then?

Why share it? I am a true believer that good energy and vibes are contagious. You may not identify with the things I identify with that make me happy but maybe one of the days you will.

It’s human nature to compare and I by no means am sharing things to evoke jealousy or ridicule. I share in hopes that maybe I can brighten someone’s day up too because those of you that know me know that helping others is another source of happiness for me.

So why not start practicing self awareness and gratitude? Make it a daily effort and I promise you will start to see a change for the better. 

Technology has driven single girls crazy!!!

One of my girlfriends gchatted me the other day while I was at work asking me if I wanted to meet up for happy hour. At first I was wishy washy because I had an all day meeting and really wanted to hit the gym. Well my work day ended up being a long one and I didn’t end up getting out til late. So I called her up and said hey are you still out, I’m on my way!

So I go meet up with her and her other girlfriend at a very hoity toity buckhead spot. I’m talking early 20 year old gold diggers on dates with 50 year old dudes. Upon arrival I just wanted some wine because it was a looooong day at work. Almost immediately I notice both girls I’m with are on their phones from the get go feverishly texting/facebooking/whatever.

At first I didn’t care, the wine came and I was happy. And my friend was telling me about her current boy situation and was having a dilemma so I wanted to support her. This turned into a “what should I text him with?” “omg he said hi whats up…what does that mean????” I tried to give the best advice I could as I had been there before and knew how it was. But after the constant checking of her phone and asking us what should be texted back and not following our advice I started to get really stressed out. And when I say stressed out I mean I was starting to obsess about whether he had texted her back and what was said as if I was the one freakin dating him!! Keep in mind both of the other girls were punching away on their smart phones while I feverishly tried to keep up! We ended up finishing our drinks at the gold digger spot waiting around to see if the other girls dude had texted her back telling her where he was going so we could go meet up with him! I’m talking we walked outside then decided to go use the bathroom so we could prolong the time for douchey mcdoucherson to text back!! Well after about 30 minutes of b.s.ing around waiting for this dude to text her back to dictate where we go next (which by the way he never responded) we finally decided to go home. Man, it was a depressing mood, and it wasnt even my deal!!!

I walk back through to the garage and get a call from my friend I  was just with saying they didn’t want to go home and that we were going to go across the street to another spot. I say sure and head on over. Now this place was ghetto fab….not my scene at all but whatever I was going to hang out with the girls more. Ummm wrong!! The cell phones were immediately whipped out by both and I literally felt like I was at this place alone. I tried having conversation but the smart phones were dictating the conversations. When I was done talking and telling a story expecting a response I only got a look up from the phone talking about the most current text from dude. I was floored. And I was done. I said I’m out of here youre both more into your phones and I came to hang out. This finally gets a response with no no no stay have one more drink! They were so adament of me staying that they even bought me a drink. So I said okay….i sit back down and immediately they were back on their phones.

I left that night frustrated and depressed. Has it come to this?? I go to hang out with single ladies and smart phones dictate the whole time? Constant checking whether a guy has texted back, then obsessing non stop about the amount of time it takes for a guy to text back, THEN picking apart what every little thing means???? What has technology done to us!!?? Ive definitely been guilty of over obsessing about texts, facebook posts, etc but seeing it first hand made me really sad. I went home depressed and then even went far enough to deactivate my facebook. I started thinking how I longed for simplicity, how I didn’t want people catching up and seeing how ive been through facebook…without me even me even knowing they checked up on me???? What happened to calling someone? Seeing them in person????? Do people have enough time out of their day to think about me and directly contact me??? So I have deactivated my facebook in hopes of having a somewhat technological cleanse and the possibility of actually  connecting with people more directly. Its been two days and I must say it has been simpler. Will I reactivate my facebook? Sure, in fact I know I will but the real question is when. I need to detox from the craziness and hope to regain my confidence that technology will not drive single gals to obssessiveness. So far so good…..hell I even went to the movie theater today and watched a movie…..you know that thing we all used to do every week??

That’s what u get for waking up in Vegas…


I decided to kill some time while waiting for my coworkers and apparently got the best seat at the bar…how embarrassing !!


So i just watched Dear John and let me tell you if you want to cry through an entire movie you’ll LOVE this one. It really did a number on me and got me thinking about the different goodbyes you say to people throughout your life.  If you haven’t watched the movie sorry I may spoil it for you a little bit so if you want to go see it stop reading now! haha

This movie is just FULL of goodbye scenarios.  There are the goodbyes or shall I say “I’ll see you soons” in the movie when John is leaving for deployment.  If anyone has ever had a long distance relationship in any way you can definitely relate to the movie.  Saying bye to someone you care about and not really knowing when you’ll see them again is heart wrenching yet hopeful.  The only thing that keeps you going is the belief that you will see the other person again.  I think it is a true testament when you have to say goodbye and can stay strong throughout that period of time you are apart and still stay together.  Kudos to the military wives and husbands that do this and also to those that have had to part a loved one but have reunited and  stayed together.  I hope to one day have that kind of love that keeps you all together.

The other goodbye in the movie is saying goodbye to your parents.  There are a few instances that came to mind on this one.  The first one was when you are “grown up” and you actually leave your parents house to go to college, to go into the military, to move out west, or to move across town to your own place.  Whatever the situation you all know what I’m talking about.  It’s a hard thing and then you do it and you get used to being on your own.  You might in a sense lose that appreciation of your parents or just not realize how much they miss and love you.  This movie really had me with John’s father and his relationship with his father.  Although the movie situation was completely different in a way I could relate.  He didn’t have the best relationship but in the end he realizes how much his father loved him and how much he loved his father.  Which brings me to the other goodbye in the movie (If you are still reading this after I warned you to stop earlier if you don’t want the movie spoiled I suggest you stop now!) was actually losing a parent.  I can’t even imagine the pain one goes through from losing a parent.  I have yet to experience it and hope not to for a long time but this movie really struck a chord and was one of those “I think Im going to call my parents now and tell them how I love them moments!”  (side note they weren’t there *doh!*) 

The other goodbye in the movie was saying goodbye to someone you’ve held onto for a long time but you know they are already gone.  As much as any of you hate to admit it we’ve all been there at some point.  (Again you need to STOP reading if you want to see the movie!)  When he says goodbye to Savannah at the end of the movie it’s just like the final ending of a long period of time that he held onto her even though she was already gone.  It’s very bittersweet.  VERY. 

Unlike the book I like the way the movie ended much much better because it leaves you with a “hmmm maybe” and a weird belief that maybe they got back together!  Even though it’s a movie and you know it is it was a nice touch for all of those who read the book.  Honestly I hated the way the book ended.  I think that’s why the movie was more moving to me!

OK so I’ll stop my boo hoo goodbye blog now but if like I said earlier if you want a real tear jerker watch  this movie.  You won’t be disappointed!

Starch Free….

In spirit of bathing suit season I agreed to go on a cleanse/workout/diet thingie with my roomie and her friends from work.  I took Xtina’s starch free cleanse that she did last week and decided that I needed to do this one because I have always eaten a lot of fruit and fiber but it wasn’t cutting it for me.  This starch free cleanse is a 3-5 day cleanse where I cannot eat any fruit, sugar, dairy, flour.  I can eat meat, veggies, and that’s about it….I’m at the end of day 4 and let me tell you it hasn’t been that easy!  But I’ve stuck through it!

My roomie and the other girls are doing a different cleanse where they can’t eat meat or dairy but they can eat some grains and fruit.  I have been doing extremely well on the food part in the morning and at work.  After work I go straight to the gym for about 2 hours then I come home.  That’s when the weird cravings kick in!!! The girls have been coming over and cooking dinner at our place and I just get the weirdest cravings seeing their food!  I just want to eat their rice and their rice stix!!!  ahhhh!!!  I don’t even like jelly  beans but I see them sitting on the counter and I want some!  Ughhhh

This is the weird part, it only happens when I get home at night… I went to lunch with coworkers the other day to California Dreamin and they all ordered sandwiches with fries and I wasn’t tempted whatsoever.   I dunno if it’s just because I get home from a hard workout and I’m eating fish and veggies :P  I mean I like fish and veggies but I’ve eaten that EVERY NIGHT the past four days! After the 3-5 day cleanse (which ends tomorrow for me!) we are sticking to eating healthy which is good– I just want a YOGURT!! I don’t even eat yogurt!! haha That’s the thing I’m craving stuff that isn’t necessarily bad (okay not the jelly beans but other stuff) it’s just stuff I can’t eat on the cleanse? 

Like right now I think the best meal EVER would be brown rice…. whhhhaaaat?? I know, weird.  Also I just want a yogurt! dammit!

Okay I think the cleanse is getting to me… thank goodness tomorrow is the last day and I can then introduce YOGURT and GRAINS back into my life!!!I’ve decided to have one cheat day where i won’t be all OCD about what I eat.  Then the other days I’ll stick to the healthy stuff and  I will steer clear of the sugars.  It has been helpful having the other girls around to discuss our progress and we have agreed to continue with the healthy meals at our place after our cleanses…. so I’m hoping to be a little more sane after tomorrow!  Saturday is my cheat day (I’m going to a baby shower so I blame it on that😉 ) so maybe I’ll get all the crazy cravings out of my system and get started on a good routine Sunday.  Wish me luck!

Movie Moments in Life

I wrote this a while ago but I thought I’d share….

Have you ever had moments in life where you look back at it and think, “Wow that could have been in a movie!”  Good or bad, happy or sad, romantic, silly, anything.  It is a moment that you will remember for the rest of your life because of the time, the place, the situation,and  the impact it had on you.

Here are a few of mine (in no particular order😉 )

My First Memory
I used to live in Hawaii when I was really little and this just sticks in my head to this day as my first real memory.  I was 2 years old and ofcourse living in Hawaii my family and I frequented the beach often.  I used to have this green turtle floatie that I would always have on whenever we went to the beach.  One day I was playing in the sand close to the waves with my turtle floatie on and I remember thinking to myself, “I want to learn how to swim.”  Not knowing the first thing to do ofcourse I take my turtle floatie off and stand at the edge of the water.  I did a couple of 1…2…3s before hurling my entire body into the waves that were hitting the shore.  I didn’t know what to do and just expected to start swimming but I kept getting washed back up to the shore.  I repeat this stint about 5-10 times before my dad who was nearby finally came up to me and said, “What are you doing??”

Saying Goodbye to my Parents
It was right before my freshman year in college.  I had gotten accepted to UGA and it was finally time to move into the dorms!  My future roommate at the time was not moving in until a few days later so both of my parents drove up with me to Athens and spent the entire day helping me move.  We spent the entire day moving things in, going to the nearby Walmart for supplies, and arranging my tiny 10×14 dorm room.  I remember being in my dorm room that evening and the last thing was placed and we all kind of stared at each other.  Then my dad said, “Well goodbye….”  My mom started crying and I started crying too.  I remember feeling so sad yet so happy, so alone yet so free, and a million other emotions.  It was that feeling of freedom finally coming to me but being so sad to let the familiar go…

Fireworks !
A former boyfriend of mine had taken me to one of my favorite spots in Chicago, Navy Pier.  It was summer time and twilight when we decided to ride on the ferris wheel.  If you haven’t been to the ferris wheel at Navy Pier it is very tall and goes very slow so you can see incredible views of the city up top.  We had just reached the top when all of a sudden the fireworks show started.  Then he kissed me!  It really was one of the most amazing experiences of my life!

Saying Goodbye to the College Sweetheart
My boyfriend all through college was a year older than me and was from up North.  His senior year we knew he was going to go back home and we had talked about it a lot but finally the time came for him to go.  He was driving that day back home so we ate breakfast together.  I remember it being eerily quiet and trying to hold back the tears.  My bestfriend for so many years who I had spent everyday with and really grew with was leaving… and it was finally sinking in.  He dropped me off at my house and walked me up to my room.  Then the waterworks started and he just held me for what seemed to be eternity and he said “I love you.”  I was so devastated and upset that I couldn’t stop crying.  He finally had to walk away with me still in tears and upset…  My room was on the second floor of the house and my window looked out to where the cars parked.  I walked over to the window and saw him walking down the stairs to his car.  I took a deep breath and stopped crying and tapped on the window.  He looked up at me and I managed to smile and wave down at him.  He smiled back and waved and got in his car and drove away.

Breakups with a Movie Music Background
The end was near and I knew it was coming.  My boyfriend at the time said “We needed to talk.” He asked if he could meet me somewhere to “talk” so I picked this restaurant that I absolutely hated because I knew something bad was about to happen and I didn’t want to associate somewhere i loved going with something bad.  We sit down and ofcourse the usual breakup convo ensued.  The breakup talk had reached it’s peak and I said, “Is there nothing more I can do?” in hopes to somehow salvage our already doomed relationship….  All the while The Fray song “Over My Head” was playing and right when I said the pitiful last chance words the part of the song where it goes, “Suddenly I become part of the past, I’m becoming the part that don’t last, I’m losing you and it’s effortless” played and he looked at me and said “No.”

Airports are for Lovers
I was dropping off my long distance boyfriend at the time at the airport (ok ok so I had a thing for dating guys from out of town!). I dropped him off and was so sad to see him go but so happy because we had had such an amazing weekend together.  We said our goodbyes and I left heading north to work.  I was a good thirty minutes north of the airport and all of a sudden he calls me saying he couldn’t get on the flight and the next flight wasn’t for a long time.  I immediately turn around and drive back to the airport so happy that I was able to spend more time with him even if it was for a couple of hours.  I remember pulling up to the airport sidewalk and almost forgetting to put my car in park and jumping out immediately when I saw him.  I was laughing at how excited I was and gave him a big hug.  He then pulled away a little and behind his back he pulled out a single red rose and handed it to me.  I just kept laughing and then gave him a long kiss.  I didn’t even realize there was a small crowd around us watching and “awwwing.”  Truly a movie moment for the book I call Life….